in a way i am dead already

it was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. and this bag was just dancing with me. like a little kid begging me to play with it. for fifteen minutes. that's the day i realized that there was this entire life behind things, and this incredibly benevolent force that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. video's a poor excuse, i know. but it helps me remember...i need to remember...sometimes there's so much beauty in the world, i feel like i can't take it, and my heart is just going to cave in.